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Laura Wolf ... I am me  
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JESUS CHRIST, JUST GO AWAY!!!!

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 21, 2005, 7:22 PM
MY GOD!! LEAVE ME ALONE! You people make me sick! GET A LIFE!!!! I don't care if you don't weant me to leave. I don't care how you feel. ALL OF YOU ARE OUT OF MY LIFE! Just leave and be happy somewhere ELSE! I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS TOWARD ME! I DON'T CARE WHAT I'VE DONE. JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE BEFORE I KILL MYSELF OUT OF ANGER HATE MONSTROSITY DEPRESSION ALL OF IT! JUST SHUT THE HELL UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!

There is no more reason to be here

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 20, 2005, 1:49 PM
I'm leaving. I have no reason to be here anymore. My gallery will be erased, save one: My Hatred For You. I will finish it soon with renewed inspiration, and will leave it here for people to look at. My journals will stay, as will my opinions. Thank you all for caring, but I have no reason to be here. Not even the thought of bringing people happiness matters anymore.

Sorry for those who actually watched me and cared.

Don't read unless you want an insult... (ranting t

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 18, 2005, 7:07 PM
Rant Number One) Jess. Why the Hell does she hate me all of the fucking sudden?! I said Hi in a chatroom and she growled at me. Jon and ZWolf says that she hates me. WHY AM I THE LAST TO FUCKING KNOW?! If you've got something to say, SAY IT RIGHT HERE, BITCH! YOU'RE the one who 3-way called me and betrayed my trust! I told you I would forgive you in time. But FUCK THAT! GO AHEAD AND BLOW IT UP YOUR ASS!!! Keep your perverted friends, sluts, and your TWISTED MIND! If you're going to be a psyciatrist, you should fix your own life before others! :fuckyou:

Rant Number Two) ZWolf. Why do I even bother? It's like I'm talking to a wall. I try to help, and all she does is insult and ridicule others. INCLUDING Landen. When he was being a good friend, she called him a Dumb ass. How nice is that? I've done the SAME FUCKING thing and got the SAME FUCKING answer from her multiple times. I HATE IT when she ALWAYS points out that she's smarter than all of us. HATE. WE KNOW YOU'RE AN EINSTEIN! BUT YOU HAVE NO COMMON SENSE!!!! No manners whatsoever, very little confidence, and a bad look on men. MEN ARE PEOPLE TOO! Just get your inspiration and do it. Don't involve me with your stupid problems, notes, personal life, BLAH!

Rant Number Three) Character Personalities. I GIVE UP ON MAKING MY OWN CHARACTERS! KiyoMori- Stolen. Okami- powers and abilities:useless. Why even BOTHER?! ChouDai and all of the rest of ZWolf's characters are the best. I TRIED to tell her to at least give me some credit. BUT NO. Her response: "I don't care." That's just it. YOU DON'T CARE. I AM DELETING MY CHARACTER REFS. HAPPY?!

Rant Number Four) Stephen and Stewie. I don't want them apart. Is that so wrong? Everyone else says it's for the better... I REALLY don't see how. Poor Stewie is HEARTBROKEN. I see it everyday. She's so lonely without him... I can't help but feel sorry for her. Is that so wrong?!

Rant Number Five) "Over and Over Again" This song relates to ZWolf and I so much. Mostly because I keep getting these thoughts in my head and it plays over and over again in my head. I CAN'T MAKE THEM LEAVE!!! The Evil side of me won't let me, and we all have our Evil sides. Or you're not human. I see ZWolf getting closer to Stewie, and quite frankly I'm jealous. I'm replaced. JUST LIKE KARYN. Now I know how she felt when she turned on us. THIS IS WHY! Next I won't believe in God, and I'll wear black every day. HOW'S THAT?!

Rant Number Seven) Notes. I started notes in our group and now I will end them. YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, SAY IT TO MY FACE! Let me see your expression. Run and avoid, you're a coward. I'm TIRED of the misleading words on paper that leads to more USELESS fighting. END THE PEN AND PAPER AND RENEW THE CONVERSATION ERA!!!

Rant Number Six) My frustrations. This is what's in my head and I had to vent. I'm still mad about them. I wish it would change and leave. I'm tired of meeting everyone's expectations and being a nice little whore...

Linkin Park has been my only happiness these few days. I'm leaning toward Karyn more and more because I can relate to her, and SHE DOESN'T PUT ME DOWN! I'm starting to regret even having friends at all. Friends are overrated. :blankstare:

MEET THE REAL NEOPIANWOLF!! THIS IS ME!! DON'T LIKE IT?! DEAL WITH IT AND HAVE A NICE FUCKTASTIC DAY~! :D

First week back

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 6, 2005, 2:52 PM
xx It's been a busy couple of weeks. I got back home from Pennsylvania and such on Saturday, and we've been doing nothing but unpacking and trying to rest all this time. This is the first time I've had to make a journal. I've been doing extra HW in order to go on a trip with the Art Club who will be going to the Miami Art Center along with other goodies. Then I'll be sleeping over at ZWolf's house afterward considering Mom will be in Orlando with a friend...

ZWolf and I are starting to work on her Manga. Hopefully for good this time. o_< I'm drawing her characters in their animal forms. :3 Wish us luck for completion! ^^

I'm slowly coloring my "Hatred" picture from my scraps gallery. I barely have any time to even lineart it. xx I colored it's head and it looks awesome. Stay tuned for the finished version! It'll knock you off your feet and leave you flat. :evillaugh:

I'm reading a Manga called: "Until The Full Moon" It's crazeh, and it has werewolves and vampires it it! xD Nuff said. :o

Going out of town peeps. :o

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 18, 2004, 4:52 PM
I'm going to the Pennsylvania area starting tomorrow evening. We'll be driving there. x3 And hopefully we'll be packed by then as well. xx We have nothing packed or ready yet. The car's not even clean. ;-; Because of going to OtakuCon early, we should be more prepared. We didn't get back until 3 this morning. :faint: I washed my puppies for the trip and put my OtakuCon Anime stuff in my room. *huggles InuYasha plushie* :3

OTAKUCON!! I HAD SO MUCH FUN OMG!!! :excited:

I got there and I was so excited. There was so much to do. Where to even begin? There were at LEAST 5 cosplay Edwards from Full Metal Alchemist, 15 or more from Naruto, only 2 from InuYasha. ;-; three people from Trigun, and others like Chobits and others I'm not familiar with. I have piccies. AND WE MET FROM DA!!! OMG! I bought a print from her. *-* But first I had to wait in this line so they could stamp me but I was jumping around and pointing at all of the cosplayers going OMG IT'S ---!! :O There was even that Panda from Ranma 1/1/2. :D And a Tsukasa! I was so happy! That was in the first 5-10 minutes or so! Then I bought all of the InuYasha stuff I could find! InuYasha plushies, keychains, pins, shirts, figurines, wallscrolls, bags... and I bought a KH poster, the LORD OF THE RINGS Hadafang sword for $75!!! :D So much stuff! And I got all of my friends gifts for Christmas. x3 I will post the cosplayers later if you want. I just had such a great time. xD And there's still to visit! :D YAY! :excited: Such a great December. xD